Monday, July 02, 2007
Warning: If you're feeling especially happy now, it will ruin your mood to read on. So don't.I'm not really feeling all happy high nowadays I don't know why. Sometimes when I lie in bed and stare at the ceiling, I wonder who
truly loves me in this world. Why do I do some of the things I do? Why do I say some of the things I say? Sometimes, I wonder if everything is just a facade, a show put up for me.
I wonder what I will be when I grow up. Everyone wants to be successful, happy, the cliched. I want that too. But I can't help but wonder,
will I be happy? Will I still have true, best friends? Will my bitches still be around and my friends? Will we age together and compare grandchildren and bitch about our son-in-laws? I hope so. I truly hope so.
What if I make this wrong decision that totally changes my life and sends it spiraling downwards and this descent will only end with the beginning of the end of my life? Will there be someone to catch me? In a chevy impala or with a hockey stick with weird carvings on them?
My food for thought, my penny for my thoughts. Because sometimes I just wonder.
And life is a road that I wanna keep going Love is a river, I wanna keep flowing Life is a road, now and forever, wonderful journey I'll be there when the world stops turning I'll be there when the storm is through In the end I wanna be standing At the beginning with you
;2:37 AM
